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2011-03-23T11:02:00.002+08:00

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realising.

2011-02-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

i just realise that i am much more happier.

after seeing things another way round.

booooo you who tried to ruin my life.

i am much more stronger and happier now.

proud to be.

2011-01-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

in my case.
it would be saying something and wishing i had not.
thanks for making me hate myself.

Thanks for making this decision.

a step of being selfish.

it hurts.

i still cant accept the fact that.

things changes as time flies.

people changes this i could not agree more.

people do change so its something we can do nothing about.

i accept every flaws just because no one is perfect.

you have to learn to accept other's just because people have been accepting urs.

seeing it as some elimination round going on.

this doesnt stop me from thinking that when ll it be my turn.

it freaks me out as much but this is part of life.

sometimes we just have to get out of our comfort zone and start living it at own.

sometimes we should just take a deep breath and have a little silent moment and step out from everything.

sometimes we should have some time left alone .

sometimes its not about who we know longer but who we really can trust.

sometimes knowing someone long enough doesnt mean that its worth trusting.

sometimes i just worry too much that i ended up having to keep everything to myself.

sometimes this could just make me crazy for not being to voice out.

sometimes i just think that i am too weak. too weak to go through all this .

sometimes. i often wondered why does the same thing kept happening to me over and over again.

sometimes i pretended so much that i dont even care but its killing me to ask or know.

sometimes i think its time to stop worrying over all kinds of shit.

this is life. no matter how awful it is. or how wonderful it is. we have to go through it.

sometimes, people doesnt know someone enough to judge them.

so stop judging because i bet no one know well enough to judge.

i kept too much to myself. :)

i am just me being emo at times. so many things going through the brain at the same time.

the more i know

2011-01-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

the more i know..

the more disappointed i am .

for what i see was not what you really are.

i really feel bad for finding out even more.

if i knew i would judge you like this.

anyways..

i cant disagree that i seriously have some confidence issues here...

not pretty , too short, too fat.

just one of those random days that i hate everything about myself.

have to learn to love myself !!!

i know..

2011-01-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

you dont have to hide.

i know you were here.

i know who is watching.

anyways , life has been pretty boring with only 3 classes per week.

new semester started a week ago..

never spotted any cute or hot hunks pffft

have been repeating the routine of waking up,eat,online and sleeep.

that explain the gaining of weight !!!

not to forget about all the shopping spree =)

officially broke now.

and ooh i am on diet now =(

just cant resist nice food infront of me. so everytime i cant resist. i would just drink water and look away.

=(

andddd !!! i must grow taller i must find a way i dont care !!!

sorry for the random updates with random things =D

cse i am random like that !! =)

it hurts because i trust.

2011-01-14T23:43:00.001+08:00

i knew it that for giving the 1st chance.

there will be a second attempt.

i dont know why i trusted you so much.

i feel as much guilty that i did that behind your back.

but then for knowing the truth it seriously kill me.

bitching behind others was never a thing to proud of.

but you take it to a second stage where you betray your friend. for i dont know what you call it.

drama queeen? attention whore much?

i am just plain stupid that i give all my trust to you when i knew there is something not right about this.

but no i am not gona shoot you down straight infront of your face.

instead i am sit back and relax and see how much drama you can create.

and oh you are nothing different from her.

i thought you could be trusted at the 1st place and i still keep my trust afterall .

you say you wouldnt say anything bad behind me and all those are just lies.

i am sure you guys could make a good partner in crime.

and.

when i said i move on . i am so sure of it. what would i wana put up an act. who do you think you are.

you guys are just a bunch of big bad liars.

that seriously break my heart for trusting so much.

you should just think before you do anything.

what if you are in my place?

i am truly disappointed.

i cant help but to ask myself if there is any non two faced people left in this world.

i am just so sick of all this and wonder if there is anyone that is true to me.

p/s: Dont try to guess who i am talking about, you might be wrong., just because my world is full of dramatic people.it might be old it might be recent.it might be idk =/. ask me if u want to know. =P

and oh i am not pointing fingers at anyone too here. its just too disappointing and i have no one to share with. so i shall rant hereeeee :)

the happppppy post. =D

2011-01-14T01:48:00.001+08:00

Being as random as i am .

i am gona gather a few smileys pictures.

because a smile can just easily make my day.

a sincere one of course :)

so put on ur smileeee everyone .

use your face muscle so that you can get a slimmer face !!!!

ok. its actually because of what my friend say.

she say i shall brighten up my blog with some happy post and i cant agree much. =)

for me. nothing is better than a smile showing my teeeth!!! i think i need to "polish" my teeth till it blings!!

oohh.. my friend say my face is getting longer. due to showing my teeth too much maybe? LOl

kohchingyee ♥ showing her teeeth without being force !! so rare !! :)

That's the way !! show me moreeee teeeeeth !! =D

Best teeeeeth showing partner !! berrrrry ♥

last but not least the winner goes to =D
if i did not update my blog few days later. all of you would know that i might be killed . by someone up there =D

there is actually much more pictures that i wanted to post.. but i am just too lazy =P

begging for forgivenessss !!! ppuuhhleeezzz =D

p/s: i am using darlie now =P

life as it goes on.

2011-01-14T01:17:00.000+08:00

what to let go when there is none.

it always ended up with disappointment when you expect something .

that is why i stop expecting since long ago.

but i always ask myself. why cant people be honest and be their true self.

its pathetic when even people that you trusted alot bitch behind you.

and all you thought is. she wont dont that to me . i know her. i can trust her.

i have been going through this issue for like ages ago.

and it just seems that its hunting me. not going away from me.

trusting people is what i always do.

trusting the wrong people is what i did wrong but there is no one to be blame.

but what would i not learn . that's the problem.

Life's not about the people who act true to your face. It's about the people who remain true behind your back.

this is one of the quote that i cant deny that it is so true.

trust is nothing nowadays.

secrets arent secrets when u told someone about it because it just so hard that it wont be spread out.

i have my own inner darkest secrets i can say that no one knows . =)

but that doesnt mean that i have no one to trust. i have a few darlings that i know i can trust. because i do.

if you know me well. you knew secrets remain secrets to me. =)

for an instance ..

i was thinking . we only live once. so its better for me to put up a smile and live on.

no matter if its a sincere one or a fake one . it doesnt matter.

=)

p/s: its just some flashback that makes me blog about this. :)

daddy ♥

2011-01-10T21:42:00.001+08:00

i wish there is a chance that daddy will hold my hand

sometimes i say i hate you but i know i didnt mean it.

sometimes i just keep quiet its because i have too much to say but i dont know which to say.

sometimes i am just being shy.

sometimes i dont know what happen that now we are like this.

sometimes i just wish that i can tell you i love you.

sometimes i wish that you can read my mind..

sometimes i wish that you know that i am always guilty.

sometimes i am so afraid that i ll regret one day for not telling you everything that i have wanted to.

sometimes i cant help but to cry in bed when you talk about death because i am afraid that i will lose you.

sometimes i dont mean to say things like that.

somtimes i just wonder why we did not take any pictures anymore.

i am just so sad that growing up, i didnt have a single photo with my dad since 7 years.

i know i am like the worst daughter anyone could have.

the way i treated you. its not what i wanted to do. but it just came out like that.

i dont know why. maybe i am not the kind who would show how i feel.

but inside my heart, you are the best dad ever !! =)

i just wana tell you, i love you daddy.

too bad he wont know =/

2011-01-09T18:31:00.000+08:00

how beautiful can the sunrise be.

i am happy that its another brand new day every morning when i open my eyes.

i am glad that i live for another day for who knows what will happen the next minute.

this is why i am gona appreciate life and every single thing now.

no matter its a good thing or a bad thing.

for i know there is always be people that i love around me.

Life has never been better.

life back home is much more better.

i am glad that i am back to the used to be always happy self now =)

i am truly glad that how i know all these wonderful people that god bring into my life .

its all fate.

am so gona appreciate every single one. =)

now here comes one of the song that i am addicted to nowadays. if i die young by The Band Perry =D

if i die young bury me in satin

lay me down on a bed of roses

sink me in the river at dawn

send me away with the words of a love song

ooh ooh ooh ooh

lord make me a rainbow I'll shine down on my mother

she'll know I'm safe with you and she stands under my colors

oh and life ain't always what you think it ought to be

no ain't even gray but she buries her baby

the sharp knife of a short life

well I've had just enough time

if i die young bury me in satin

lay me down on a bed of roses

sink me in the river at dawn

send me away with the words of a love song

the sharp knife of a short life

well, i have just enough time

and I'll be wearing white

when i come into your kingdom

I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger

I've never known the lovin' of man

but it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand

there's a boy here in town

who says he'll love me forever

who would have thought forever could be severed

by the sharp knife of a short life

well I've had just enough time

so put on your best boys, and I'll wear my pearls

what i never did is done

a penny for my thoughts oh no I'll sell 'em for a dollar

they're worth so much more after I'm a goner

and maybe then you'll hear the words that I've been singin'

its funny when your dead how people start listenin'

if i die young bury me in satin

lay me down on a bed of roses

sink me in the river at dawn

send me away with the words of a love song

ooh ooh the ballad of a dove

go with peace and love

gather up your tears and keep them in your pocket

save em for a time when your really gonna need em.

oh the sharp knife of a short life

well I've had just enough time

so put on your best boys, and I'll wear my pearls

Turns out to be..

2010-12-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

there is just so much things going on.

my life is a disaster..

i just realise that in this world..

there is no one that i can trust.

i once thought that voicing out would be a better choice..

and i am wrong..

from now on .. i am so gona keep everything back to myself again..

i am just so tired of every single thing in my life now.

mistakes

2010-12-25T13:49:00.000+08:00

mistakes made..

i make mistakes like how everyone does..

it cannot be prevent ..

but every single time i made mistakes...

guilt never fails to kill me..

and guilt is killing me on Christmas eve night itself..

But i am happy that there is always someone that will be there to comfort me..

so that guilt doesn't control my mind and i ll be doing something stupid enough.

fresh air needed

2010-12-25T13:31:00.000+08:00

seaaseaaaseaaaasideeeeeeee

lets head to the seaside ...

where i can scream as loud as i want..

throw as much stones as i want..

jump into the water and swim to nowhere if i want..

i want nothing but a seaside nowww.

listen to the water how they hit the shore..

the smell of the fresh air..

i really need to go to the seaside now..

going with someone special would be better..

i am gona leave this place soon and be at somewhere else. cause i cant stand it anymore.

it would be go if its somewhere with a seaside..

but it would be even better if it snows so that i dont have to pretend.

Merry Christmas everyoneeee. lets celebrate happiness and love and joy.

i would wish to celebrate next year's christmas with one special person

and somewhere else with a white christmas...

awww that's just so romantic..

p.s : being the random me.. my post always run out of topic.

and in one post . there is different topic LOl.

=) as hard as you can now before you regret doing so.

lonely christmas

2010-12-24T11:09:00.000+08:00

alone

this year is going to be a lonely Christmas..

the heart cannot be told.

lets hope that santa drop by..

even shopping and splurging cant help the heart from aching..

this is bad.

Bitch alert

2010-12-18T12:49:00.002+08:00

Bitch alert Lol.

it seems that every single year a would be meeting a few of this kind of homosapiens.

who i trusted ( i trusted everyone wth)

that would have stab me behind my back.

but even if i found out i would be keeping quiet..

there is just too much that i know..

that i could spread out if i want to but i dont want to because i am not like you.

lets just see how much dramas are you gona create now.

freaking disappointed.

you are so freaking fake.. that . its getting obvious i would say..

LOL.

at some point of time i think you really deserved it..

cause you just cant see that you are doing the same thing as well.

ooh i just remembered that .it might be a punishment as well.

burn in hell.

=)

out of this world.

2010-12-16T17:16:00.000+08:00

i would choose to hide here in my secret hideout someday.

tolerating and keeping it to myself is always part of my life..

but sometimes when people go overboard...

i just feel like straggling myself.

there is a limit for everything ..

but then when everything reach that limit it will be increased automatically..

sometimes... i am just tired of being me. ='(

dream

2010-12-12T23:37:00.001+08:00

going round and round and round

i dreamt of a fairytale.

it was a wonderful dream..

i was surrounded with beautiful sceneries, castle and cute animals..

its just that i am lost in the castle ..

going round and round looking for an exit ..

its a fairytale..

i had dreamt of.

the truth

2010-12-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

what's the truth.

figuring out everyday what it is all about..

tears appear just without reasons .

asking why must it be me every single time..

clueless about all the ignorance..

things changes without knowing what's the reason.

it gets even worst when people act as if nothing happened at all.

it would be good if i can read minds.

it's time for me to get tipsy now..

and think about nothing. nothing at all.

it will end soon.

2010-12-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

I need you

have been having nightmare for the whole day ..

just because i have nothing to do so i have been taking naps.

every single time i dreamt of something bad.

just because i am all alone.

insecure =(

i need you , someone please come save me .

Cravings.

2010-12-01T03:27:00.000+08:00

Bibimbap ♥

me want korean food !!!

cravings at 3am in the morning.

random-ness =D

life

2010-11-30T19:07:00.001+08:00

when things like this happens...

all i can say is...

fml.

try hard to forget..

then.. move on.

and wish that i owned a magic eraser =)

Getaway

2010-11-30T02:38:00.000+08:00

getaway

crystal clear sea

fresh coconut

kpop songs!!

this is what i need. =)

its even better with companions !! =D

instead...

i moved into a house which can be counted as empty...

which make me freak out ....

how can i survive T_T

2010-11-28T13:38:00.000+08:00

move move move

its house moving time again..

this is like the 3rd time within 9 months =__=

and there is so many problems even before moving in.

problems problems problemssss

that make people go crazy 0_o

irresistible

2010-11-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

too cute to resist !!

ahhhhhhhh

this is just so cute.

berry's favourite Domokun !!!!!

i don't mind if domokun bites. just because its too cute =D

Snow

2010-11-24T16:35:00.000+08:00

oh snow snow snow

its snowing everywhere.

in the library, in the staff room and even the classroom.

but the snow is invisible =(

how cool if its snowing outside now.

so that i can put on winter clothes with a cup of hot coco spending time with love ones.

Only by imagining that makes me =) .

lets move to north pole =D

2010-11-24T12:56:00.001+08:00

run to the edge and jump off.

sometimes it's just so hard for me to be like this anymore.

you make me feeling strangling myself but not you.

this is too much to a point i cant take it anymore.

i think you should grow up and be dependent.

who knows what's waiting in front.

and i probably have seen enough of what others couldn't.

thanks for making me speechless .

because for once.. i thought you would change.

no. you don't know who you are.

you would never know.

2010-11-24T02:20:00.001+08:00

I could have fly up high even without the balloons.

sometimes a little details could put a smile on someone's face.

thanks for making my day .

you seldom fail though .

but you never know.

=D

2010-11-23T02:59:00.002+08:00

Fly up high. Bring me to somewhere far far away.

I would have regret someday for not telling you.

But i regret now for telling you .

i shall bury myself deep under now.

Every single thing i do now is so unpredictable.

ohmy i am out of control =X

and i know why. =)

Happy Meal is lying =(

2010-11-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

I thought happy meal would make me smile.

but no it doesn't .

McDonald lied.

you and me

2010-11-22T10:01:00.003+08:00

its just you and me.

oooo my noteeeessss

facing you would have make me faint... very soon.

when and where am i suppose to start?

good question given to the procrastination queen.

i declare war. =)

2010-11-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

how pathetic....

Tracks.

2010-11-21T10:41:00.000+08:00

heading to somewhere with an unknown track..

heading to somewhere with all this thoughts.

having no clues at all.

with a dead end coming up.

to finish the unfinished track or to leave the track....

what if someone can decide for me..

for the undecided queen.

signing off with a smile..

not knowing if its real or fake.

take a guess.

2010-11-21T02:58:00.000+08:00

what i would have done.

if i have the chance.

to cure that broken heart.

poooooffff

2010-11-20T18:44:00.000+08:00

*poof*

its all gone..

i wave gooodbye to the past..

and say hi to present and future.

it sure is full of =)

but i can guarantee alot of ='( too.

But that's life. what is life without all these .